Fighting Change

It hasn't even been two days since I started to really make an effort to get myself on track and it's already an effort. There are so many temptations around me and I'm even struggling to not snack excessively.  It's like something is being dangled Infront if me saying nanana you can't have it but it makes me want it more. 

Someone said to me today, you're not supposed to be dieting. It's a lifestyle change. And they are totally right...

It is a lifestyle change. So I am currently struggling to change my bad lifestyle into a good one by NOT eating between meals at work (a very bad habit). By not going out shopping when I'm hungry at lunch (too many temptations outside of the building).

 I had a NSV today (non scale victory). I stayed at work when I knew I would pig out at lunch. I sat Infront of a computer and picked out all my favoueitegym classes in Durham region for seven days a week so I know where I can catch a class and when. 

Then after work, I avoided Costco hungry so I wildnt snack or give into a hot dog. Small steps. But big hurdles for me.

Today is day two without sugar. I am going to see how long I can hold out without ketchup.  I'm weening myself off carbs slowly over the long weekend. I already have a headache and the urge to binge and mangle something or someone.  And even if I have to stay in my room all night long, I will not give in. I will not binge. Because this journey is worth it.

 Because I am worth it.